Wednesday, October 24, 2007

The awfulness will end, right?

It's still awful. It really gets bad toward the afternoon when I am broken down from a total lack of sleep. Last night I had J do baby duty while I went to sleep from 7:30 until 9:30. I know it's totally depressing for him to come home to more work and a reheated burnt tuna noodle casserole. But BP slept like a champ last night. I know it was just a fluke but whatever.

It's the nursing that really gets to me. But atleast I am slowly fitting into nonmaternity clothes. I don't want to weigh myself quite yet because I know it will just depress me but I CANNOT wait to go shopping for cute a year. Ha! The beauty of nursing. This time I am doing it more for me than the baby. So selfish, I know but it certainly didn't keep ear infections away from W. I nursed him for 7 months specifically for that reason and look where it got us....5 ear infections and a perforated ear drum later.

We got out yesterday. All 3 of us. I had to. We got out the door, W in his sunsuit, me in flipflops and baby in a skimpy day gown only to find it was freezing cold. So we had to pile back in the house which pissed W off and add sweaters to our ragamuffin wardrobes. We were a sight. Let me tell ya. So we made it to the coffee shop and LO AND BEHOLD there was a party going on! It was packed full of familiar faces and W was so happy to see his buddy and vice versa. Lauren said I looked like I was going to cry and she was right. It took everything I had to suck the tears back in. I don't know if it was because it was so hard just getting 3 minutes down the road or if I was overjoyed to be out and see people much less friendly faces. It was quite the welcoming. I didn't sugar coat this experience though and I must apologize to those who are pregnant or thinking of getting pregnant. It's not all horrible. There is a wonderful, sweet little baby in it for you. But anyway, it was the highlight of our day.


Nola said...

Being four months out, I can remind you (since you really do know), it DOES get better. You are still dealing with the physical-ness of having given birth and your hormones are still way out of whack. Getting out is great!!! I know some say stay in for those first three months, but I got serious cabin fever. It's nice just to have the tasks of getting everyone dressed and ready. It breaks up the monotony.

Hang in there!!

Wendy said...

Just think of it as a minute closer to the kids' bedtimes and you can pass out. At least that is how it is for me.

Oh man, this blog maybe the birth control I need to smack that idea of a third kid outta my head. See, you are doing a public service. You are keeping US from multiplying.